Lesbehonest here....

So yesterday was a cluster cuss. (bonus  points if you know where I got cluster cuss from)

Some people need to learn when to shut their mouths. From what they said I know they have read my blog which creeps me out to no end. But whatever I forget sometimes I'm a big deal. Anyway what was said does not matter they will be gone in a few weeks just like the others.

Here is the thing , I am an adult and I don't play games.  I tend to Win them. I'm not really someone who cares what you think of me, for all the people who hate me there are 10 more that love me. I just don't care.  I don't have time for bullshit. I'm to busy doing me.

I love when people who have no fucking Idea who I am try to start shit. Seriously if  I don't tell you why that is a bad Idea I have some pretty close friends who will knock you out before I can even stand up.  That was a metaphor. I don't condone fighting.

I just hate drama.


So here is something  I'm so incredibly proud of

Today at the gym I usually do walk a min, walk faster a min then continue for 10 mins . after  do all my other stuff , it's always the last thing I do at the gym. Today  thought you know what I need to step this shit up because  have 2 5ks next month. So I Ran a min walked a min for 12 mins. I was doing an 18 min mile pace. 3 mins in to this I ripped open the blister that was forming from the start, I kicked my shoes off and ran/walked the rest barefoot. I will not be stopped.  I am so so proud of myself.

I also did 50 lat pull downs on 50#s and folding laundry was a bitch but  did it.

I'm starting to step out of my comfort zone at the gym and it feels amazing.  The high i get from the gym erases all the sadness/pain I have inside and I crave that escape. I'm just glad it's not drugs. I prefer the gym to anything.

I am completely exhausted but its so rewarding. I have a long way to go to meet all my goals but everyone has to start somewhere.

off to shower and then clean it's my only completely simi free day this week.


 Peace.